letters.

this is the man made of letters. it's in Antibes, where I live, overlooking the ocean and the port. it's beautiful, i went there today to take photos because the sun was shining and i wasn't working.

then it got me thinking. letters. letters make words. but the same letters make millions of words, in all different languages. and one letter out of place can really change the meaning of something. yet the same letters can make up two words with completely different, or even opposite meanings. 

it's so powerful. the power of letters, the power of words, speech.

then i read a quote today, and it made sense.

'there comes a time in your life where you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it, and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.'

                                                        ♥♥♥

Men in Uggs.

So personally I think it's quite a contraversial subject.

Some men, like Ben Afleck, can just do it. They can get away with anything, even Uggs tucked into their jeans.

But I Ben Afleck's is acceptable because they're black. It's more subtle. Normal 'tan' Uggs on men, I'm not sure about. Especially tucked in.

But I don't know, I've got mixed opinions.

What do you think?

stripes.

a simple look.

loving stripes, so paired my black and white striped H&M top with some jeans and added a brown belt.

I tucked in the top for no other reason than I thought it looked better like that.

and as it was a hot day, worn simply with gold flipflops and vintage sunglasses.

loves of the moment.

Topshop

Sex & The City

Louis Vuitton Speedy 30

My Estee Lauder Double Wear

SJP NYC Perfume

Loving this colour, also Abercrombie hoodies.

Christian Louboutin's red soles.

Just a few of the things that I'm loving at the moment. Some of them are way too far-fetched for me, the Louis Vuitton bag, the Louboutin shoes. 

But I'm enjoying dreaming about them anyway.

The Topshop top is gorgeous and really want it, just a bit difficult as I'm in the South of France and seems that the nearest Topshop is quite far away, but no harm in looking.

love love.

xo

a little find.

i've just found this top on asos, and i really love this look. it's so simple yet looks good.

i think i'd pair it up with my River Island boots and add a few accessories - probably a necklace and definitely some bracelets.

only thing is i hate how things never look the same on me as they do on the models...

England

My last day at home before I moved to France.

I spent it with my boyfriend at the lake near my house.

My look:

Grey Skirt - H&M

Black Top - Topshop

Cardigan - Vintage

Scarf - Vintage (J. D'Ormont, Paris)

Sunglasses - New Look

Boots - A Coté, Paris

my specials.x

I'm back. I have started another blog about my year abroad because my uni asked me to, but i didn't want to put them both together because this one is for me, that one is for my family / friends / uni to read. they don't care about my boyfriend and my emotions or what i'm wearing today or anything.
so that's why i've hardly posted anything in forever!
well, i'm back. i hope. i miss blogging about girly things. instead i am writing about food and sunshine. which okay, i love. but it's nothing like handbags and blusher, or shoes or necklaces. or boys.

so, here goes.
my best friend and her boyfriend have just broken up and it's made me really sad. they were so happy and such a gorgeous couple from the outside. but she said she didn't feel it, so what can you do? it has made me think so much, about friendships and other relationships in general.
one thing i've found recently, this year especially, is that too many people are far too wrapped up in their own lives to care about things that are happening in yours. and that makes me question my friendships. i have so much fun when i'm with my girls, all the time we laugh we have so much fun. but then there's the question of, who's there for me when i need them?
i know who's there for me.

i haven't had an easy time this past year, i've lost three people close to my heart. two grandads and a friend. it has been a rollercoaster, but ultimately i have friends and a boyfriend who help me through. they help me smile and change my train of thoughts when i start to get down.
everybody should have somebody like that, somebody they can lean on and a shoulder to cry on. somebody to make them smile even when they're really low.
i am so thankful for the special ones in my life, always there for me whenever i need somebody.
even now, when i'm across the ocean, in a different country.

sorry for being so deep. sometimes i, just like everybody else, get a bit emotional and find it so easy just to write what i'm thinking and voila. that's exactly what this post is. a mix of everything, a little bit of waffle and a lot of emotions.

lovelove. xo

here i am.

my new home.

just beautiful. i feel so lucky.

emotions running wild.

so just a quick post to update you all on my adventure.
i have arrived in antibes,where i will be living for the next 11 months.
it is beautiful, the blue sky and palm trees. so far i am very impressed.


but at the same time, i have so many mixed emotions.
i'm happy to be here. but it feels like a holiday.
i'm sad to have left my man. my family. my friends. i had a little break down just now after seeing my boyfriend on skype. i'm still emotional, it's so hard. since we knew i was coming here, we saw each other almost every day, which was so rare for us because of the distance. but it was amazing, it was perfect. we loved every minute, and now suddenly it's all hit me. i won't be seeing him again in the flesh for three weeks.
he's in england, i'm in france.
skype, it's not the same. i can't feel his hand in mine, our fingers so perfectly folded. i can't see the look in his eyes when we say bye. i can't call him at any minute of the day to say hello. i can't smell his scent when he's gone.
all of these things, they're getting to me. 
it's only a year, it's only a year. if i live til sixty or seventy, what's a year?
a year is a sacrifice of true love. that's how i feel right now.
it couldn't have come at a worse time, we had sorted out all of our differences and overcome any flaws, our relationship is at it's peak, and now i've left, off to a different country for a year.
am i a bad person?
i feel like it.


but this is an adventure, not just for me but for us both. he'll have holidays, we'll grow stronger. 
times will get tough, that's inevitable, but i'll stay strong for him.
the man of my dreams.

this is my time.

the time is so almost here. it's almost time for me to leave.
destination: antibes, france.
my plane leaves at 6am on monday morning, it's all happening so fast. i got this job about 4 weeks ago, it took about 2 weeks to sort out a start date etc, now suddenly it's here.
i start in one week, next friday.
i leave in three days.
i'm busy trying to pack up my whole life into 40kg. i've started, but don't dare weigh it.
afterall, i am moving there. like i'm not just seriously overpacking for a holiday. it's serious stuff. 


i've spent my last week here with my friends, also a lot of time with my boyfriend, and obviously my family.
it's so hard. but it's weird, it's not actually properly hit me that i'm going...and not coming back for a year. a whole year. 2011. sounds so far away, it's only four months away. september 2011. wow. twelve months, one year, fifty two weeks. ahhhhh.


i'm trying to work out what i'll miss the most.
the comforts of my own home? no, i've been at uni this year anyway.
mummys cooking? probably not, although there's nothing like it.
my boyfriend? ...we don't talk about that.
doing what i want, when i want? nah, i guess i'm going out into the real world.
english food? mmm fish and chips. wow. i'll miss that.
my family? well they'll come visit.
friends? also, i hope they will come out.
speaking english? yeah, didn't even think about that one.


wow, i have so many more things in my head. i'll miss it all.
but, looking at it from a positive light, i'm going on a new adventure, a life experience. something that will help me to mature so much and give me so many new experiences. i will meet new people and add to my list of friends. i will experience a new part of the world and get an insight into working life. i will be able to speak fluent french. i will get to taste proper french food, crepes for breakfast. see the french fashion. shop in amazing shops. driving on the wrong side of the road.
now it's all going to be okay. everything will be fine and i will be able to share my experiences from over there.


so hopefully not, but maybe my last post from this side of the channel.
if so,
speak to you from the other side.


lots of english love,
xox